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NAME : LadyNorthstar

REAL NAME : Lucrezia

SKYPE ID : lady_northstar

AGE : 23

NATIONALITY : Italian

LIKES : nocturnal animals, drawing, history, loud movies, pen-and-paper RPGs

FANDOMS : Marvel Comics, the Walking Dead, Lovecraft, Doctor Who, Once Upon a Time, Disc World, Game of Thrones, Harry Potter, Supernatural, Assassin's Creed, Sherlock

ACTORS : Jeremy Renner, Norman Reedus, Karl Urban, Viggo Mortensen, Tom Hiddleston

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Anonymous Asks:

I just read your post and in my opinion, it seems that apparently so far, you were drawing just to get notes, to please others. You should draw just because you like it, just because you feel like doing that, because it makes you feel good and because it relaxes you and so on, not to get other people's attention. It's just my opinion though, maybe you're having some bad days, or could be art block? Maybe it's good to take some time out and do something else that might inspire you :)

ladynorthstar Said:

if I were drawing JUST to get notes, I would be drawing popular pairing or popular fandoms, won’t I? I draw things I like because I like to draw them.

but it gets me down when I notice all the time and the effort I’ve put into them doesn’t get any feedback. that every single other artist in the fandom - including those who draw the same obscure pairings I draw - get hundreds of notes while I get hardly 30, no matter how much I worked hard on a piece. I consider my art mediocre, not good, everyone that follows me keeps on saying me otherwise but every time I try to confirm their words, I can’t find any validation for it.

but the moment I’ve decided I didn’t care anymore about those things, that I was just going to draw for me and just for me, I don’t feel any drive to draw anymore. any of it. I just lost my will to do it.

so do I have to feel bitter and competitive and miserable and always depressed if I want to keep on doing art?